Last night I did something I probably shouldn't have done... I decided to watch a woman give birth on my iPhone. I have this Babycenter.com app that has videos embedded among daily tips and other news about changes happening to me and the baby...
I noticed a link to a woman giving birth after receiving an epidural and thought it may be a good idea to begin mentally preparing myself... After all, I only have four more months until it's my turn... The video started off with the woman in a lot of pain.. Then she gets the epidural and she's pretty happy, joking around, etc... Then, it's time to push... Then it gets ugly... I won't go into too much graphic detail, but it didn't look very nice and there was definitely tearing...
Typically, I'm the type of person who wants to know as much as possible before I experience anything... But all this video did was make me think about how there is no painless way out of my current situation. That's when I started to freak out a little bit... I can't wait to meet this little guy, but there's no way to do it without experiencing massive amounts of pain. If you know me well, then you know I'm a total wuss about pain... I've shed tears over paper cuts. How in the world am I going to get through this?
There's really no good way out... A c-section means they put a knife to my belly and cut the baby out and move all my organs around, etc...Longer recovery time and I've heard it can be pretty painful post-surgery (and it requires a longer hospital stay - ick). And the natural route (obviously the preferred scenario) just seems like so much work... I mean, I'm so tired just thinking about it, I can only imagine how tired I will be after hours of contractions... And anything that ends with me needing to sit on a donut to be comfortable just sounds terrible. Honestly, the whole thing just makes me want to cross my legs really tight and hold the baby in forever.
My husband keeps assuring me that it will be 24 really miserable hours but then it will be over and we'll have our little man... And I know he's right, but the whole thing freaks me out... I'm a problem solver and have been racking my brain to come up with a child birth scenario that will produce the least amount of physical pain (and damage) and I can't come up with anything... I'm really out of my scope here... I know women do this every day... But they're not me!!!
