Just want to feel good again

Now I'm officially 22 weeks.  My little boy is the size of a papaya or a spaghetti squash.  He's finally reached the 1 lb mark. 

I've been a little slow with the blogging this week because I've been so busy sleeping, looking for a new apartment, researching baby items / furniture and feeling sick.  Some of the positive highlights for the week include:

• Watching a Rangers game from a luxury box at MSG (all you can eat chicken fingers!).  And randomly bumping into my good friend K who ended up in the same luxury box (what are the odds?)  I swear NYC is so small sometimes... Though the Rangers lost in double overtime, it wasn't a total bust... My husband did get his pic with Adam Graves, after all.
• Having dinner with our friends J and A and baby H at City Hall in Tribeca.  Though the food was only mediocre, it's always nice to go out with another couple and have a relaxing dinner and just chat.  And I hadn't seen H in almost 2 weeks, which is the longest I had gone since he was born.  He changed so much in that short period of time, I couldn't believe it!

And with the high points came the inevitable low points:

• Morning puke sessions (2 to be exact)
• Uncontrollable, unrelenting heartburn, bloating and gas
• Poor sleep for two nights due to 1. baby throwing party in my uterus and 2. racking my brain for a way to reconfigure our current apartment to accommodate a baby so that we don't have to move and spend gazillions of dollars on more rent, a brokers fee and movers (NOT POSSIBLE)

Honestly, I just pretty overwhelmed by everything... There's alot of change going on and while it's fun stuff - new baby, new apartment - it's just alot to take in, especially when I just don't feel like myself.   I'm so freaking tired and eating is still such a battle for me... The fact that one of my favorite things on earth has become such a burden just kills me...This pregnancy has totally changed the way I feel about food and eating... I don't look forward to meals... I just try to figure out a way to get through them... My whole goal is to get rid of the hunger in the least painful way possible. I am just really frustrated... I'm in my 5th month and everyone keeps telling me "you should be feeling better."  Well, guess what, I'm not.  I'm trying my hardest to be positive and I definitely feel better than I was even a month ago, but I'm not myself and it sucks.  I just want to feel good again so I can enjoy all of these life changes...